I have lost my spirit.
It was the one I had kept for my own good by making me challenge myself.
I have stopped pushing myself after several failures.
I know I shouldn't have stopped, but what was the point of it?
Nothing.
Were any of challenges I was willing to take during my highschool years helpful in any way? No.
Did anybody recognize my efforts? Not at all.
I kinda figured out that people less dedicated to their work living just fine as well as me. Or much better. That's really really bothering me ;(
Different confidence
Different mindset
But,
it doesn't really matter.
Does it make any difference?
Can I ever say it ruined my life at all?
I have lost my spirit.
It was the one I had kept for my own good by making me challenge myself.
I have stopped pushing myself after several failures.
I know I shouldn't have stopped, but what was the point of it?
Nothing.
Were any of challenges I was willing to take during my highschool years helpful in any way? No.
Did anybody recognize my efforts? Not at all.
I kinda figured out that people less dedicated to their work living just fine as well as me. Or much better. That's really really bothering me ;(
Different confidence
Different mindset
But,
it doesn't really matter.
Does it make any difference?
Can I ever say it ruined my life at all?