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너 한테 전화가 왔었지... 나 1시반에 잠들었던 터라 조금 피곤했어..네가 우리집에 전화한게 2시반이었어...물론 받았어...그시간에 전화 할사람은 너 뿐이니까..
언제나 그랬듯..."오빠 자?" 
나두 언제나 그랬듯..."아..니.."
수화기 속 네 목소리 왠지 모르게 낮은 음이었어...아무생각 엄씨 툭튀어 나오더라..
" 무슨일 있니?"
" 아니...." " 아닌데...무슨일 있는거 가튼데? " " 아니야...아무일엄써"
" 근데 목소리가 왜그래?" 왠지 걱정이 되더구나...아니...걱정이라기본단...
그런적이 없던 너였기에...맘에 걸렸어...항상 웃기만 했던 너여짜너...이래두 흥~~~저래두 흥~~~ 항상 그런모습만 보여줬었어...
" 아니야...아무일두 엄써..." 잠깐의 침묵이....흘렀어....
" 오빠 졸려? 피곤하구나....피곤한데 께웠나보네...."
" 응....조금 피곤하네....미안한데...내가 내일 전화하면 안될까?"
"......."
"미안해......" 나 다음날 아침에 중요한 일이 있던 터라...무쟈게 걱정을 하고 었거든...
" 아라써...그럼 자~~~" 네 목소리가 조금 달라 지더구나...화가 났었지?
내가 잘못한거구나...생각이 들더구나.....이렇케 전화 끈구서 다시 내가 전화를 했었어...
달래려구.....아직 어리니까 그럴수 있다구...근데....화가 마니 났었나봐..그냥 난 그렇게 끈을수바께 엄떠군.....며칠동안 맘에 걸려써.....너한테는 전화도 오지 않구...
결국 어제 전화를 걸었지....큰맘 먹고 말이야...아무렇지도 않게 항상그랬듯...
넌.....기분조케 바다줘써....아무일 엄따는드시....
난 내가 왜 이렇게 된는지 몰라....어떻게 하다가 이렇게 된는지 몰라,....
왜 한 여자때문에 다시 또 이러헤 맘졸여야하구...만만한 전화기 조차 무서워하게